Frustration 
 
You seem surprised I’m hurting 
Yet it’s me you’re deserting 
I’m only looking for respect 
Yet you continue to reject 
 
I’m not asking for the world 
Just to be understood and heard 
Because I can’t do this on my own 
Yet you’re making me feel I’m alone 
 
I can’t stand in supermarkets shouting 
Questioning our marriage and doubting 
We should not be doing this 
We could be lovers enjoying bliss 
 
But when you disrespect me 
And continue to reject me 
How do you expect me to go on 
Not really knowing someone 
 
Note: 
 
Written following a row with my much loved and beautiful wife Samantha. Any relationship will have its ups and downs – that’s normal. But at some point when you have made your feelings repeatedly clear and you continue to make the same statements over and over again you start to question if the person who you are arguing with really cares. Because surely if they did then it wouldn’t take loads of times for a message to hit home. I wrote this out of sheer frustration. On this day in particular I was asking myself if I was heading in one direction and my wife another. I felt very sad and alone. A relationship can’t work with the weight of responsibility resting on one set of shoulders and that’s how I feel. I should not have to talk to my wife on the same level as my 6 year old son yet when you end up saying the same thing over and over again you suddenly find yourself snapping and ending up doing just that.